There is a particular kind of disappearing that happens so slowly you don't notice until you are almost gone.
Not a dramatic unraveling. Something quieter and more insidious. You look up one day at 45 and realize the life you are living fits you the way someone else's coat fits. You are in it. You are wearing it. But it was never yours.
This painting holds that moment of recognition. The grey that dominates the canvas is not emptiness exactly. It is the accumulated weight of all the versions of yourself you performed for long enough that you forgot they were performances. The yellow that pushes through in the lower right is not yet an arrival. It is a question. It is the first faint signal that something underneath all of that grey is still there, still warm, still wanting.
Almost Disappeared Completely was built through Reiki-attuned layering, the process itself an act of reaching through fog toward something true. Of all the paintings in the Wild collection, this one sits closest to the bone.
From the Wild collection, 2024. Featured in Visual Art Journal, Curatory Magazine, and AATONU..
There is a particular kind of disappearing that happens so slowly you don't notice until you are almost gone.
Not a dramatic unraveling. Something quieter and more insidious. You look up one day at 45 and realize the life you are living fits you the way someone else's coat fits. You are in it. You are wearing it. But it was never yours.
This painting holds that moment of recognition. The grey that dominates the canvas is not emptiness exactly. It is the accumulated weight of all the versions of yourself you performed for long enough that you forgot they were performances. The yellow that pushes through in the lower right is not yet an arrival. It is a question. It is the first faint signal that something underneath all of that grey is still there, still warm, still wanting.
Almost Disappeared Completely was built through Reiki-attuned layering, the process itself an act of reaching through fog toward something true. Of all the paintings in the Wild collection, this one sits closest to the bone.
From the Wild collection, 2024. Featured in Visual Art Journal, Curatory Magazine, and AATONU..
