My Transformational Year - Part 3

At the beginning of 2023 I did a ceremony to decide on my focus for the year. I saw it on TikTok and since I wasn't big on resolutions, I thought I would try this method and let the universe decide.
I wrote down 13 ways my life could be improved and each night for 12 nights I burned one without looking at it. The final slip of paper was my responsibility.
"To deepen my spiritual journey"
So when a reiki course came along, I signed up. At the very least I thought it would distract me from the state of my business and it did. For those 6 months of indecision, back and forth in my head, I leaned deeply into a new practice, where each day I spent time giving myself unconditional love.
I didn't paint the entire summer or fall but I felt like I could face another exhibition and that I would sit in my booth with a new mindset. I did a bit better, I covered the costs to be there and I met some new Artist friends.
Yes, things shifted but only very slightly.
I still wanted more.
I expected more.
I decided that for 2024 I would only focus on painting.
No exhibitions.
Just studio time.
But I had to address the financial reality of selling just a handful of canvases in that year.
After 6 years as a full time Artist, I had a choice to make.